Title: My Happy Place
Author: Ster Julie
Rating:
PG
Codes:
AOS (2013); S, Mc; h/c; written for Spiced
Peaches XXIV (!)
Part 1 of 1
Summary:
Once Kirk was
stabilized, McCoy found another crisis on his hands when he finds just how
badly Khan has injured him.
—ooOoo—
All eyes were
on Kirk,
and that was how it should be, according to Spock. Despite the pummeling
he took at Khan's hands, Spock refused to let on to the medical staff just how
badly injured he was. Spock refused to distract the
medical personnel from the all-consuming task at hand--the resurrection of one
James Tiberius Kirk.
No one noticed
when
Spock tried to blink away his foggy vision or surreptitiously wipe
the fluid leaking from his nose. No one saw him move to a less brightly-lit
area of Sickbay to spare his eyes. No one observed how the Vulcan was
clinging harder and harder to the furniture to help him remain upright while
Kirk was stabilized.
It was not
until Dr.
McCoy turned to give a brief report to the First Officer that anyone noticed
that something was wrong with Spock. With one glance, McCoy took in the
Vulcan's pallor, the fluid, the bruises that were starting to appear.
He lunged as Spock slid down the wall he was using for support.
The Vulcan's eyes rolled back in his head and he started seizing.
"SPOCK!" McCoy
yelled.
The doctor
turned Spock
on his side as medical personnel rushed forward with scanners whirring
and injected anticonvulsant drugs.
"Dammit!"
McCoy cursed. "Multiple skull fractures! All along the
sutures, as if his bones were ground together. Once he stops seizing, get
him on a back board and move him to Trauma 2. I want to see what else
he's been hiding."
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Spock's awareness
shifted. It was as if he had stepped away from his body as it slid down
the wall and began shaking. He could hear McCoy's shouts and the drone of
the scanner. He could feel McCoy's hands on him as the doctor turned him
on his side to protect his airway. He sensed the injection and the
immediate sense of nausea it brought. He felt his body being restrained
on a board and lifted to an examination table.
McCoy spoke
quietly to
the First Officer.
"I'm going
to run
some scans, Spock," the doctor said as he gently closed Spock's eyes.
"Just use your Vulcan mental mumbo-jumbo and rest. We'll take
good care of you. Go to your happy place...if you have one."
My happy place, Spock thought.
Mother would say the same to me
whenever I had to undergo some unpleasant experience—and it was usually at the
hands of medical personnel!
The ghostly
Spock turned
from his prone form and studied the readouts of the scans. He was no doctor,
but he knew enough about
his own physiology to see the skull fractures.
Spock could remember the appalling sound of his cranial bones grinding
together as Khan tried—twice—to
crush his skull. The super human
nearly succeeded had Nyota not beamed in and stunned Khan when she did.
Spock caught some of the
words McCoy recorded his findings. “Multiple
fractures along the sutures of
the sphenoid bone, temporal bone and frontal bone. Brain swelling. Cerebrospinal fluid leak from ears and
nose. Extensive bruising. No damage
detected from the PTS.” The ghostly Spock was curious with the
unfamiliar acronym—PTS. He placed a
transparent hand on the doctor’s face and learned that it stood for post-traumatic
seizure.
The doctor
turned to his staff.
“I
have to pull some bone fragments out of his dura mater,” he said. “Somebody
bring me the micro beam.”
Spock heard McCoy’s
unspoken thoughts as the requested equipment was set up.
Thank God you are a green-blooded hobgoblin, Spock, or you’d be a
goner right now.
The Vulcan continued
observing McCoy. Spock was impressed
with the vast amounts of knowledge the doctor was calling up, the multiple
steps he ran through mentally in preparation for the micro-surgery, the
centering ritual he performed as expertly as a Gol adept before beginning. McCoy
admitted that he was at the end of his
strength after the multiple injured crew he had already treated, especially
with Kirk. The doctor sought the
strength and alertness he needed to give Spock a chance of a full recovery.
Please don’t let me lose him, McCoy prayed.
Ghostly Spock moved
closer to the doctor. He would lend
McCoy the little strength he had left so that his task would be accomplished
satisfactorily.
Go to your happy place, McCoy had told him. Spock
looked around. His world had shrunk to
himself and the doctor. Is Leonard McCoy
my happy place? Spock
thought.
The doctor toiled over
Spock with the micro beam. McCoy
tractored each bone fragment out of the dura and settled it back into its
proper place before sealing it. It was
like assembling a three dimensional puzzle, all one color, from the inside out,
in the dark.
Spock traced ghostly
hands over McCoy’s spasming back muscles.
When the doctor grew weary, Spock poured more strength from his small
reserve.
Hour after hour Spock
sat in McCoy’s skin. It was a comforting
place—and in his ghostly form he gave not one damn that comfort was an
illogical emotion. Spock’s regard for
McCoy as a talented doctor, as a person
grew exponentially. Spock recognized
that McCoy had a beautiful soul, and that the doctor would sacrifice everything
for his patients, his crew, his family.
Is Leonard McCoy my happy place? Spock repeated.
Spock acknowledged
his
new-found regard for the doctor—his knowledge, his skill, his ethics, his
concern for his crew. He found something
with McCoy that he never had with Nyota Uhura.
Spock was drawn to the doctor.
Spock remembered
asking
his mother when he was young, “What is a happy place?”
“Well, Spock,”
Amanda had answered,
“a happy place is where you are at peace, where you feel comfortable. It’s
a place you don’t want to leave. You want to run back to it again and
again,
especially when you are experiencing something unpleasant.”
Spock observed McCoy laboring
over
him. He was sure that, if he was fully
conscious and drug-free, what he was experiencing would feel highly
unpleasant. Remaining by McCoy’s side
was far more pleasant. When he was once
again fully conscious, Spock knew that he would have to examine these thoughts,
examine where Nyota fit into this equation—if
she fit at all!
Spock contemplated all
that he had
observed and discovered. As the doctor
leaned back and stretched when at last done, Spock found that he was reluctant
to leave his place with McCoy and return to his body. He thought about what
his mother had told him
long ago and came to a conclusion.
Leonard McCoy, I suspect that YOU are my happy
place!
END