Worst Case Scenario

I'm ashamed to say that this isn't the story I promised Janet for this issue of Spiced Peaches. Despite my promise I hit a huge stretch of writer's block around word count 10 000. At that point I realized that the plot wasn't even halfway done and regretfully had to acknowledge that I wouldn't be able to finish it in time.

 

This is a short apology-story. The idea grabbed me some days ago after watching 'Errand of Mercy'. As a reminder, that's the episode where the Klingon empire wants to annex the planet Organia and the Enterprise is sent to stop them. A war is threatening to break out until the Organians step in and force a piece treaty. This is an AU of that episode.

 

 

Warning: Sad.

 

 

Worst Case Scenario 1/1

by Thispe

 

 

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It was not so much the flickering of the lights in sickbay that disturbed McCoy, but rather the complete unpredictability of the rhythm. Never knowing when the light would go off and more importantly, never knowing if it would come back on afterward touched an instinctual fear of the dark deep inside him that he didn’t care to explore any further.

 

He had reported the damage to engineering almost three days ago and was still waiting for repairs. He understood the delay. These days lights were never first or even second priority on the ship. Not even those of sickbay. Not when there was the warp drive, weapons and shields to think about. As long as the biobeds and the sterilization fields were up and running he would have to wait like every other department. Only for emergencies was there a short-lived but efficient secondary lighting system in place. Unfortunately emergencies usually meant blood, pain and screaming. Not simply a doctor afraid of the dark.

 

He sighed and went back to work, forcing himself through sheer willpower to ignore the flickering lights. There where still reports to file and while he doubted that anyone would ever bother to read them, the soft glowing of the padd provided at least a small amount of consistent lighting. It also gave him something to do while he waited, either for the next catastrophe to befall the ship or for his shift to end, whichever came first.

 

Like every night, he was manning sickbay on his own. They were so short-staffed these days that he sent his people off to get sleep whenever he could. In two hours it was his turn and he would exchange his lonely sickbay for his equally lonely quarters. Sighing and chasing away the dark thoughts he went back to his report.

 

It was only ten minutes later that he felt something change. The back of his neck was tingling and hairs on his arms were standing up. He tensed and cocked his head to listen but there was nothing to hear until, “Good evening Leonard.”

Startled he swiveled around with his chair and smiled. Spock was standing only a few inches behind his chair looking down at him.

 

“Spock,” he whispered. His smile broadened. “It is good to see you, I missed you.”

 

Spock's face softened. “I too longed to see you beloved.” He held out his hand, his fingers ghosting over Leonard's face, almost but not quite touching his skin. McCoy kept his eyes locked on Spock wanting to soak in every last detail of his lover's face.

 

“How long can you stay?” He finally asked.

 

Spock cocked his head “Not long,” he admitted “but I will try to as long as possible”.

 

McCoy's smile was bitter-sweet. “Then I suppose we should make the best of it.”

 

Spock nodded. “How have you been Leonard? You look pale. You aren’t taking care of yourself. How much time has passed since we last saw each other?”

 

McCoy smiled, trying to dispel Spock's worries. “Almost two months. But you don’t have to worry about me, I’m fine.”

 

Spock frowned, “You are lying, Leonard. You do not look fine. You look ill.”

 

McCoy's smile faded. Spock probably did have a point. He sighed suddenly weary to the bone. “Not any worse than the rest of the crew, I’m afraid,” he admitted. “The entire fleet is limited to emergency rations because we have to make supplies last. The Klingons have been mainly targeting our supply ships and we just don’t have enough fire power anymore to protect them all. Half the people on the fleet are bordering on being underfed. Add constant stress, injuries and lack of sleep and we are lucky that we aren't worse off. Gods Spock...” he tiredly rubbed his eyes “...this war gets worse every day. I just don’t believe there is going to be a winning side anymore. Last week the latest rounds of diplomatic talks broke down. Almost all members of our delegation were killed. The Klingons refuse to give in at all. They want control over the entire Federation. Their damn pride won't allow anything less. I'm afraid we and the Klingons will fight each other until we are both too weak for any sort of defense. Then the Romulans will swoop in and have easy pickings of us all.”

 

Spock did not respond which McCoy took as silent agreement of his assessment. The war had raged on for sixteen months now with no side ever getting the upper hand. Attacks and counterattacks, small and large, outright battle and stealth missions. Each side getting more and more desperate over time. They were caught in an eternal impasse. No side was strong enough to outright win but not weak enough to lose either.

 

War. What an ugly word. It had cost them all so much.

 

“Please,” McCoy begged. “Let's not talk about this now. Every day there is barely anything else to think about. I want to enjoy what little time we have without talking about the damn Klingons or my damn health.”

 

“As you wish, Leonard,” Spock soothed him and brushed his hand over the meld-points on Leonard's face. They tingled at the contact and McCoy gasped in pleasure. They stayed like this, unmoving, for what felt like hours. A strange tableau vivant – two lovers divided by more than space, yet unable to look away from each other's gaze for even a moment.

 

“I love you,” Leonard whispered. Between one breath and the next Spock winked out of existence leaving McCoy feeling hollow and bereft. Feeling every single day of his age, he heaved himself out of his chair and left his office for the sickbay proper.

 

Against his better judgment he went to the other side of the room where a curtain separated a small, out-of-the-way corner from the rest of sickbay. Delicate tubes and wires connected Spock's body to the machines that kept him alive. Like every time he came here, McCoy first glanced at the reading of Spock's brainwaves despite knowing that he would barely find any activity at all. With a deep sigh McCoy curled up on the chair standing besides the bed. He took Spock's hand into his own and rested his head on Spock's arm. Just for tonight he would pretend that the body on the bed wasn't as good as dead.

 

 

The conflict between the Klingon Empire and the Federation had been brewing for a long time. Skirmishes along the border had been the norm for years. Neither side had been willing to attack outright, but neither had they been willing to give up. Until sixteen months ago when negotiations had broken down and the conflict had escalated into a full-blown war over the planet Organia. As the only M-class planet in the neutral region closest to the Klingon-Federation border it was an important strategic point for both sides of the conflict. Whoever could claim the planet as a base would have a decided advantage in the war.

 

As far as Federation archaeologist could tell the planet had been inhabited by a pre-warp society until about a thousand years ago. How or why the Organians had seemingly vanished into thin air was unclear. Some assumed a plaque, though there were no signs of one. Others thought that the Organian people had been abducted for reasons unknown by a highly advanced alien species. Whatever the reason, no inhabitants meant that the planet was ripe for the picking without any local resistance at all.

 

The Enterprise had been tasked to prevent a Klingon take-over. In an elaborate ruse Kirk, Spock and forty disguised security officers had convinced the Klingon landing party that Organia wasn’t as uninhabited as they had thought. They had let themselves be conquered and in the end had managed to assassinate the Klingon leader Kor, his second in Command and two thirds of his ground-troops. Twenty-eight officers had died in the following battle. Kirk and the twelve remaining officers had barely gotten away with their life. Spock alone had ended up as a prisoner of war in the hands of the Klingons.

 

The fight on the planet had continued with a battle in space, the Klingon army against the Enterprise and the only recently arrived Starfleet backup. It had left both fleets badly damaged with no conclusive winner. Spock had been transported out of the sector by a fleeing Klingon battle cruiser. By the time Jim had managed to stage a rescue more than a week had passed.

 

Leonard had known that it was far too late even before then.

 

Spock had tried to protect him from the worst of it but a Vulcan mating bond was strong even when one of the pair was almost psi-null. The Klingon's had wanted nothing but information – strategies, potential targets, fleet strength. They wanted it all and they had ways to get it. McCoy had felt Spock's mind slowly deteriorate under the onslaught of the Klingon mind-sifter. Not even his disciplined Vulcan mind had been able to protect him against the repeated assault for long, as the machine stole thought after thought out of his head. By the time Jim had finally brought him back, Spock's voice had long since fallen silent. All that returned had been an empty shell devoid of life.

 

McCoy knew that the precious glimpses of Spock he saw every few months weren't strictly speaking real. No one but him could see, hear of feel Spock. It was all in his head. In accordance with what little he knew about Vulcan mind techniques he could only speculate that a part of Spock's Katra had found refugee in his own mind through the connection of their bond. Without a Vulcan body to support it, it was weak and barely noticeable. A mere precious few memory imprints in McCoy's brain. But over time and with proximity to Spock's body the imprints always grew stronger, until there came a point where for a preciously short amount of time Spock manifested in his thoughts as almost real and alive.

 

Until the energy waned, the strength of Spock's memories abated and Leonard was alone again.

 

McCoy didn't quite know why he wasn't simply giving up. Most days he wasn't even entirely sure that it really was Spock he kept seeing and not just a hallucination brought on by wishful thinking and the mental damage done by a violently broken bond. And yet, the hope remained that it was all true and that he could get Spock back if only he could get them both to a Vulcan mind-healer. With the ongoing war and the planet Vulcan closed off in a protective lock-down that possibility seemed more unlikely every day. And yet, the hope remained, niggling at him like a wound that refused to heal.

 

He lived for those rare moments where he could see Spock, talk with him and keep up the illusion that all he had to do to touch his lover was to simply reach out. Sometimes he thought it was the only thing that kept him sane. That it was the only thing he still lived for. And then he had to wonder if it was worth it at all. Carefully he squeezed Spock's hand with his own.

 

It didn't squeeze back.

 

 

- Fin

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